Drinking alone
thinking alone
it doesn't feel the same
you've forgotten my name
it doesn't matter
I'm getting fatter
but no one will know
I'll wear bigger clothes
change my face
change my body below
it'll break the ice
it'll knock you out
this pain
it drives away the mundane
it is dazzling
my insides are frazzling
hoping for some sort. of. Life.
It's worth the strife
this delicate
delusion
of
separation
crunch munch punch
to the face
to finish the race
of my heart
the start
is ahead
the finish behind
you don't want to find
me
in the crowd
I screamed it loud
I whispered it sweet
I left my insides
at your feet
I left my mind
inside your chest
and all that's left
of me
is flesh and bone
alone
now we've grown
you've flown
I'm in a cage
Never gettin
past this stage
enraged
disengaged
hollow
there's rain
inside my brain
it's not outside
even though I tried
to make it so.
I did a rain dance
hoping for the chance
of you
appearing.
You didn't show
now I don't know
how to move
if only I could prove
what you meant to me
mean to me
how you fill me
swallow me
shadow me
cover me
empty
empty
empty
empty
empty
recycle
trash
trash
trash
used
reused
trash
basura
empty
shit
dirt
crap
empty
tears tears tears!
Cried to no one
a stained pillow case
an ugly face
make-up running
once stunning
done
done
done
shut the door
to your...
room.
Bones lie in the closet
broken lockets
remains
of some one
two
three
four
maybe five...davy crocket
could stake a claim
elbow room!
Cried daniel boone
none to be had
no room to be had
he was glad. you were glad.
just like your dad
nameless faceless
gone.
there was a depth to your eyes
you couldn't disguise
you tried to hide
you wouldn't confide
I gave you my secrets
you ate yours
rebound
unbound
let go
of
my heart!
It's crumbling, a part
goes with you
a part, is new
a part, is hollow
a part, you swallowed
a part, I buried
with yours
open doors, windows
and ceilings
break it down
to the ground
till there's nothing
left
to be found
of us.
of you.
of me
of that
time
when we two
had something new
something true
but away it went
with the tide
my soul was spent
your tongue was tied
you wanted to hide.
my way of thinking
tainted
I can't feel the way
I once did
nothing is the same
since that day
the rain...
it pelts my face
it isn't soft
it isn't sweet
it's not the same...
it's a different place
i'm incomplete
robbed
restitched
unhinged
the smell of familiarity
lingers on my clothes
fingers that dance, a heart that sews
itself on sleeves
it's an old day smell
that brings clarity
for some odd reason
it goes with this season
I'm believin'
for a brighter day
not waiting for you to say
you're not grieving
not waiting to receive
a word from you
a look from you
a smile
a slow dance
a summer romance
that could've been
I'm going forth
heading north
maybe east
maybe you're the beauty
I'm the beast
We're running in reverse
the finish is where we start
you said give it one more chance
take one more glance
before you utter a curse
before you close your heart
to a warm knock
a sweet embrace
the beats dart
one, two one two
buckle my...blues
eat my heart
eat my love
eat
eat eat
repeat
defeat
replete
meat
elite
treat
me
like
dirt
eat
the worm
toss the apple
you're the bird
I'm the germ
we don't dapple
we don't grapple
we beat the earth
with a feather
tickle my heart
with leather
torture my soul
with kind words
with distinct phrases
that you wrote on your forehead
that you strummed on your guitar
we've come this far
only to be lost in the mazes
of our own poetry
love is dead
love is you
love is me
love is lost at sea
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