whiskey and cigarettes

I wanted to crawl into the corners of your mind

Stretch myself across your mind

till I was so thin

I fluttered when you walked

Like my heart fluttered when you talked

You, you...you

with your caresses

my soul undresses

I can't help but give you all that I have

A pair of shoes, and a broken nose

overdose

overdose on the texture of your tongue

on the taste of your kisses

your skin salty,

like a sea, undiscovered

like a child, recovered, you

hold me in your arms

I'm drowning in your charms.

What a way to die.

What a way to live!

Free, unharnessed

I'm takin' over your mind.

You're gonna have to charge rent.

When my money's been spent

I'll pitch a tent

in your heart.

Oh hell, Florida's got enough

sunshine

and pink plastic flamingos

for the both of us.

Whiskey and cigarettes, that's how the

story goes.

You, me, them, a hushed celebration

No provocation

but plenty of outbursts.

Will it get worse?

It was a cold night. It always

is.

My heart pre-frozen, doesn't feel much

But this...

you...

with such...hope you came to me.

Offered it up in a slow dance.

I let you take the lead.

My heart was about to be freed.

Set loose. Loved?

Love. The best four letter curse.

I let my feelings disperse

I chased them out.

You were a dream. I was in one

Could I believe in good again?

Easy to do in the sunshine

What about the time when

the clouds rolled in and brought the pain?

Fog and dew.

My bane.

Winter rain in the summer time

it's like my insides.

All shook up.

Ventricles collide, hope subsides

Fate tripped me up

I fell into your dream

You made mine burst at the seam

The end of the world

My world.

Their world.

They think, we think

we know

What to drink, where to go.

We hid, we covered our faces

Fit in all the right places.

I found a place in the back of your mind.

It's a place where only you can find

me.

I'll stay here till I overtake your heart

Your ventricles becoming a part

of me.

Every step you take, I'm moving you

to a breaking point.

Keep pushing through

because I'm here, I'm here

inside of you.

You are my happiness

So near was such bliss

Ah my heart fails me

My worries invade me

But you are true

You asked me to stay

Oh sweet honey dew day!

A joyous sigh

Escaped my wearied form

My hope lept to the sky

I was above and beyond

You would be my song

With bad rhymes and

awkward rhythms

Pain, hurt, synicism

Tears, laughs, adventure

I wanna hold your hand.

A Girl.

A Boy.

A split second in time

we met.

Just as my heart

began to fret.

You came along.

Sang a song

A good song, a love song

We laughed, we drank.

You remembered all

I remembered you.

The canvas blank

The walls torn down

They will say it's wrong

It doesn't fit the perfect mold

but we create.

we explode.

The norm isn't ours.

The expectations corrode

we are a new kind of old

you, a fresh breeze,

a fragrance, unsold

a story, untold

soon to be known.

There would be sunshine

again.

But we were up before dawn

and everything seemed wrong.

Too fast! Slow down!

Hold. Back. Your. Heart.

My world turned, one sound

one word.

And we were apart.

Silence.

My hands shook.

One day.

Another day.

You never made me doubt

who I was

who I could be.

What the world was about.

Green grass and daisy chains

empty picture frames

but you were in my heart

buried so deep

I couldn't rip you out.

I tried, I pried at the roots

you were a part of me

now.

I can't escape you

I don't understand you

I can't get around you

never before

have I felt such...

Pain.

Joy.

Sorrow.

Bliss.

Loss.

Freedom.

Weightless listless

Hope.

Dare I say love?

no. It's what you want

most of all.

It's what I want

evermore.

Yet we're scared

to hit the ceiling

hit the floor.

It's a feeling we truly can't ignore

hard as we try...

it's pushing to the surface

this pain has a purpose

it's closing doors

opening wardrobes

worlds await.

Things were so right

so true

Every thought was a

thought of you

Take it slow

begin again

Enjoy these summer days

I think of all

the ways

You were like my best

friend.

Am I old news to you

now?

Or would you find me in the crowd?

We both long for the

word we will not

say.

We hid beneath the

sheets

for another day.

You run, I stand alone.

There is a distance growing

as we long to be close

You are driving, I am

running.

I want to wait for you

but you've gone to the

cave.

There's no entrance, just a

back door

and a lone window

always shut.

I've made curtains.

A doormat.

A welcome sign hangs

round my neck.

One that says 'shut'

is around yours.

Now I write my

life on

receipt paper.

Hoping for a word

from you

Is this the fairytale?

It seems better to

me

In its imperfections

Irony.

How do I hide a

happiness

that is growing

Though you seem far

away...

Will you open your eyes?

I'm right here.

I'm the melody to that

song you've been trying to write.